I Need a Predictable Environment

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I Need a Predictable Environment
I ponder what are the side effects of 11 years of perpetual travel on my mind, body, emotions and spirit. It is debatable whether I am stronger or weaker, what parts of this machine is damaged and which parts are working optimal efficiency.

A traveler understands standing in line, queuing up, and wonders how such a simple task becomes a “Charlie Foxtrot.”

I personally believe humans are animals and will crave, seek, and find what we need. I do not want to solve any problems today, tomorrow, or for the next few weeks, I want a boring life.

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Bauang or San Fernando Philippines
Southeast Asia
Thursday, August 13, 2009

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I have found myself repeating the same words of wisdom, the same advice, to my Thailand Girlfriend here in the Philippines. She will ask questions,
“Why do the Philippines people answer no before you ask the question?”
“Why do the Philippines people not finish buildings?”
“Why do the Philippines people move to Manila?”
“Why do they stand in the middle of the sidewalk?”

My advice is something like,
“You do not want to think about this, please try not to think about it, trying to find the answers will drive you crazy, you truly do not want to understand how the world works.”
If a person becomes frustrated, the solution is easy, do less…

I accepted many years ago, the majority of Tourists needs to go home to relax, they were not on vacation, they were not recreating themselves, and they had just changed channels. I think planning a vacation is an oxymoron.

I find that chaos is my best friend, an annoying friend at that, but the more I accept I cannot control my friend, the happier I become. I am not going to feel guilty, I will do less today, and I will try to get nothing done.

I am going to lie around the swimming pool here in the Bali Hai East Hotel here in Bauang, Philippines and comtemplate the definition of the word "resort."

I Need a Predictable Environment

Gadget

Traveler Versus Tourist needs to be defined by comparing and contrasting.
http://www.hobotraveler.com/travelervstourist.shtml


john

This is not really on the topic, but could you reccomend some other travel blogs of world travelers you may know. I like reading travel blogs, but I find that many quit after a year (actually they only really plan for a year). I seem to keep finding blogs after their travels are over, which isnt as much fun reading. As far as the topic goes I have to admit that I like to travel, but after a few weeks of being away from the USA I feel a pull to come back. What is interesting to me is when I travel within the USA, I dont feel the longing to come home. I think it may be a matter of comfort, but I think it is mostly a factor of culture. If you are an American, your going to seek out American things. I see it in your blog posts, you seem to like to see a little bit of different things, but I notice you hang out a lot in American looking diners and talk to a lot of expats, not a bad thing, but I think it is just your culture showing.


Gadget

Going in a diner to eat is not a day, it is one hour of 24 hours.

People focus on one day, while I focus on the whole year. I spend 4-5 months in East Africa and before that two months in Pucallpa, Peru. I spent almost 6-8 months immersed in other cultures with zero interaction with Americans.

I am one of the few travelers who actually is immersed for months in a culture, most never leave their cultures. If you studied travelers going to Kenya, you will see the majority hang around Nairobi to guarantee conversations. I never stayed in Nairobi.

Philippines, I just went to Nagudpud with a Thailand girl, there were no expats there, or in Vigan, I was immersed in Thailand culture and Philippines culture.


Gadget

My life has been out of balance for the last 6-8 months, I spend two months in Central and South America and then 4-5 months in East Africa. Then one miserable month in Thailand, I do not tally well the amount of time out of balance, but I know I am seeking people around me who are stable.

People are always the problem, and my girlfriend assisted in making my live miserable in Thailand. Her life was out of balance, she has quit the job that was destroying our friendship.

I am slowly forgiving her, and I suppose she is slowly forgiving me for not living in Thailand and traveling the majority of the year.

I have made the decisions to not allow bad or lower cultural behavior to rule my life, and / or to be tolerant of it.

Example: Lying to save face.

Example: Her not talking to me in front of Thai people because the culture is racist against Farang.

Generally if you look at foreigners who marry in other countries, they do not collect their friends from the groups of available locals. They have expats from Western countries as their friends. They are living in a country and more or less brought along their friends.

Expats often are close to sociopath in guilt or love aspects, they are capable of feeling guilt or love, it is not required that you show love, commitment or to care when you live outside your home country. I on the other hand know my family and friends and I never tried to divorce them, I try to keep them.

I am still a patriate, I am not an expatriate.

I am not sure whether a person should make a decision whether they like or dislike another person. I dislike certain behaviours of my Girlfriend. I have told her, I have no patience for you right now, I am burnt out.

Example: I do not want to talk patiently with a person who does not speak English fluently. I do not wish to tolerate when she does not understand and does not tell me. I am tired of working so hard to communicate.

I just need time to allow my mind to plays all the files into their proper files. I call this the gobblygoop factor.
http://www.hobotraveler.com/newstips120insert.shtml

I am abnormal in my honesty, I do not macho out and pretend I am perfect. I know this hiding of my feelings will not lead me to Nirvana or some higher level of self-actualization on Maslows scale.

I need to be honest, I am fully cognizant though that readers are not my personal friends, they hide behind layers of anonymity as i also do.

I have many friends, I will sit on Skype for the next month and all all of them, regain the levels of intimacy I need.

Talking and admitting who we is considered a weakness or a problem in almost all cultures, it is my great strength. A person with secrets will have their secrets used against them, I am well by how secret I am, not by being private
Thanks
Andy