Here is a simple experiment to learn what you are feeling today.
“An unexamined life is not worth living.”
There is an endless wave of people passing in front of world travelers, the more we move, the more people that become available to observe. I will often say, when I am tired of one culture, I get on a plane and change the channel. My goal is to feel better, not radically, however in a way I am wanting to avoid disgust and contempt that grows as I know people better. There is part of me that is a hermit, but I will not give up.
Let me think, what are the major emotions I feel daily?
I did a small experiment, I want to know, how do I feel daily, what feelings are more prevalent and which one are less? To do this, I went to Wikipedia and found a list of simple emotions.
Basic List of Emotions:
I took this list of words below and sorted them, by what I feel most to least:
TOP - What I feel MOST daily in Panajachel, Guatemala on Lago Atitlan
TOP - What I feel LEAST daily in Panajachel, Guatemala on Lago Atitlan
My mother has become rather repetitive in e-mails as I continue this perpetual odyssey, she seem to use two words to explain why her son travels.
Maybe she is right, maybe she is not, I am never sure what I feel, in a way, I think I am searching for the simple. Nothing gives me more hope for the human race than simple, I listen to endless complicated, convoluted and crazy people talk, brag, be endlessly greedy and selfish, anything for money, and any comment need to elevate their status.
I want to strive to be simple, I want to appear simple to people, maybe it is because the nobility I see in the human race almost always resides in the common person. When I see a farmer standing with a hoe in the field, I feel pride for the human race, when I watch a tourist walk into a restaurant full of other foreigners fully ignoring the simple locals, I feel contempt.
I have a way of evaluating all my friends, is respect growing or lessoning? It is simple, there are so few people in my life I respect, it is almost amazing. However, there is an overabundance of people doing respectful things all day long. A person can work all day at what they believe to be mundane and menial in a 100 percent respectful way. However, they do not keep it simple when they get off work and are free, they start to misbehave and be disrespectful. However, if I put the pros and cons together, these people spend the majority of the day doing respectful work.
It only takes one lie to lose respect of another person, it only takes one selfish and greedy act for me to want to avoid you. I would deduce, very few people want to be respected, or the believe everyone around them is too stupid to realize how often they lie.
I would challenge all humans, take the list above and sort them, try to find out how you feel, if you want to feel good, it may help to know what you feel. Sadly, I walk on a long and complicated path, but I will stay the course, I am searching for simple people and places.