My Life Scorecard December 22 2014 - Introspective Life

It's my life, even when I am trapped in the machine. My Life Scorecard December 22, 2014 today, Andy Lee Graham in Orland, Indiana for Christmas.

I wrote this to myself today, maybe a little Christmas gift for me.

“We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.” ― Kurt Vonnegut, Mother Night

 

Kurt Vonnegut, Mother Night

Paradise lost presumes that we at one time had paradise, and somehow lost it, generally that we failed, and lost paradise because of weakness on our part. Yet, what a lofty word this paradise, used way too often, too easily as if we are all in paradise. And, how do we know what paradise is?

I suspect it means a place where little of any self-doubt, or preoccupation with leaving, we have no desire to leave.

Many of you realize, I, Andy Lee Graham have spent the last three months in Europe, and it feels as if my paradise travel lifestyle was in danger, and while in Europe, I often felt as though it was going to leave, depart, that indeed I had lost the plot, the path, the way back to my self-made lifestyle; maybe I was lost, maybe I would somehow forget how to return to paradise.

I was frightened for the first time in 16 years, first I made one compromise, then another, next thing I knew I was trapped. Please, I was once trapped by the machine for 19 years, and guess what, that too was my fault.

My Life Scorecard:

24 Years - Age 1-24 -- lived my life.
19 Years - Age 25-42 -- lived the life I was expected to live by my culture.
16 Years - Age43-59 - lived my life.

It would be nice if we could just pretend we never lived our lives, but the scorecards of life are cruel.

john

I like that line about time machines. Is that form a book or did you come up with it on your own? I hope your find your way back to your own paradise.


Gadget

I wrote the thing about time machine, trying to explain in different words the quote from from Kurt Vonnegut.

“We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.”
? Kurt Vonnegut, Mother Night

These two quote mean almost the same thing, we must always be careful, whatever life we are living today, yesterday, and the future is who we are, we don't just get to pretend we are the person in the future.

"People believe in time machines, and wish to travel into the their future, and forget the past. Yet
we do not get to erase a lifetime of failed today by
talking about the future, we must change our todays."
- Andy Lee Graham


GaryS

It's easy to think we'll never make a mistake or a wrong decision.

Years ago, we were traveling all over PI, we just knew with 7000+ islands, that one was right for us. Guess what, we never felt safe, satisfied or well feed the entire time we were in PI, all our journeys there seemed to end up in lousy rooms or hostels and the food was mediocre, to say the least!

While we found the Filipino people to be extremely friendly, we never felt that we "fit in" to the PI society, in general.

After a while, we learned and realized that "baksheesh" could really make a big difference in "most" places in PI, after that our experiences there was somewhat elevated, but having resided in Thailand for most of a decade, we found "most" of the worlds paradises to be very wanting!

Many travelers watched your recent foray into Europe with a wincing feeling, we knew you weren't happy in the vast majority of places you visited, yet, you did meet some nice folks along the way, in the long run of any journey, the traveling is often more fun[at least for a traveler], than the destination.

You'll unwind and think about what you want to do next, in the safety and comfort of your Moms home in Indiana, then off to scenic, warmer, green Lake Atitlan, Guatemala. After 3 months there, you'll have a good idea of what's next on the Andy express of the worlds destinations.

All the best, Andy, kindly remember each day is a...present! The people you meet on your journeys are the best part of paradise..


AlwaysRt

Being frightened and being trapped, while very real feelings, are not reality. They are illusions formed in our minds and can only effect us if we let them and many of us do. That is why so many of us watch your travels feeling like we can't do the same. What was an eternity in Europe is now now but a blink of the eye memory, a re-learning experience. Your paradise travel was never in real danger, the invisible prison bars were never really there. We all have faith in your ability and never doubted your return to your path.


hobodmd

Want to wish you a wonderful Christmas Andy and safe and wondrous travels. Europe may be a lil on the uptight side well, maybe not when it comes to cleaning the juice machine,,,
As for the Hobbit movies yes,,, they can be sleepers lol. We had a Hobbit binge watching the old ones getting ready to go and see the new release I will confess, I had some good sleep time tee hee hee.
My wife is Korean and she and the boys want to go to Soul and Japan I often tell them that Soul is like the USA only more so. We had a few exchange students stay with us for the school year when John was younger and loved sharing the culture and experience. Ok ENJOY


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