I Want an Internet Addiction Atakpame, Togo West Africa Friday, May 11, 2007
Do you think of yourself as an expert on staying connected anywhere in the world? Are you connected when walking around with a cell phone or Blackberry, maybe other methods? Do you continually search for faster and better ways to stay connected anywhere? Does the first thought that goes through your mind before going on vacation happen to be? - How will I connect my computer to the internet? -
Have you worked 10 hours trying to connect your computer to the internet? Do you have a super good chair in front of the computer, a chair made for comfort, then all sort of small toys, special lights, telephone place strategically. Is the first thing you do when you wake is check your emails. Are you addicted to a 24/7 high speed ripping fast internet connection?
The Monkey is on your back you are addicted to the internet.
I can feel the patterns of addictions, I was addicted to Alcohol, I am a recovering Alcoholic, and as we say, - An addiction is an addiction, all the same. - Or, - It takes and addict to know an addict. -
Strange as it sounds, I am not addicted to the internet. I think I would have severe problems traveling if I was addicted. It is possible I am addicted and the process of breaking the addiction is easy. I would maybe think I am addicted to the computer, however not the internet.
I can see the pattern though, I am having troubles, I can spot an addicted person from 50 feet away, and I think I smell and feel them, you can fool a normal person, but you cannot fool an addict.
Therefore, upon the acceptance you are an addict, how does one continue to get a fix, how to stick the needle in my arm, and connect the juice to my computer and say, ahh, that feels good. I have a connection.
RUSH The rush is when hear yourself say, - I am connected. -
Give up, I am not sure you can travel yet, you need to stay home, but maybe soon, very soon, I am have heard some stories of 24/7 internet connections on the planet. I am not talking some stupid WIFI in a bar; I am talking some high-speed connections on top of mountains.
Australia A friend said he was in Australia and had something maybe called EDVO.
USA A friend wrote me from some hotel in the USA with a Sprint card that works anywhere, and I think he pays 60 US per month.
The worst connections I presently have on the planet is when I return to the USA. My parents Verizon dial up account, and high speed is not offered in my small town, I continually check, my home connection is terrible. I cannot send emails with my Foxmail email client because it blocks my access to Yahoo Mail, then I share the telephone line.
Here in Togo, the Togocel.tg connection block FTP, I cannot use Cute or WS-ftp to publish photos. I can attach a photo in blogger and upload in this manner, but horrendously slow….
Slow, this is the addiction problem, when an alcoholic needs a drink, the best remedy is a shot of whisky, get that warm rush faster. An addict to the internet needs a fast click, a fast load, a fast, a need for speed, better not travel… hehehe or stay only in 5 Star Hotels.
I have been thinking about my addiction, I want to be addicted to the internet, I want to have that 24/7 fix. I on the other hand do not want to sit in front of the computer; I want to know it is there when I want. I want to protect it, I do not want to use it, and I want to nurture and know, there is a connection. When I return to my room, I dial the GPRS here in Togo and check, the say to myself, yes, I have a connection, and then of course, I download my emails. I have symptoms of addiction.
I would suspect the addiction to the cell phone or making phone calls is 10 times worse than internet. This person returns home from vacation with a 500-1000 dollar cell phone bill… hehehe
I am the sum total of all my dysfuntional behaviors.