Togo How Do I Feel Atakpame, Togo West Africa Thursday, April 26, 2007
After my Motorcycle accident. I am getting these small email from my parents, how do you feel, are you ok, do you need something
How do I feel?
feel like I was doing a two a day American Football practice in August and am very worn and tired.
I was a middle linebacker, I remember when I screamed through the line and sacked the quarterback in scrimmage.
Now, this brings on a torrent of screams from the coach, the Center and the Left Guard are worried, if it happens again, the coach say, - You are going to run the ridge till Hell Freezes over. - I have embarrassed them.
On the next play, for some strange reason, I am out of play, I fall down in the backfield around where the safeties would be, as I am getting up, the Left Guard and Center see me, I am out of play. But, I am the threat, they decide to take the cheap shot, as my knees clear the ground, I am hollering, hey, I am out of play. This is just scrimmage we are on the same team.
They take the shot, two fat, overweight, farm boys from Indiana, with a head of steam do a dive block into me at about rib level, I am on my knees, they plough me into the ground, I am punished.
This is a real story and this is how I feel, like I got punished by two very large Farm boys in Indiana who wanted payback.
What can you say, it is over, it happened, I was in a motorcycle accident, I accept it hurts. I really do not have problem with physical pain, it is pretty normal in travel to not be comfortable.
I was trying to avoid the fight with the Peugeot Car Taxis, this is why I was on the Moto, I wanted to be more comfortable. It is real ineffective to talk about pain, explain pain, it passes, I broke my femur in four places and walked around on crutches for a year. I know 99 percent nobody cares, yes they can give platitudes and comments, but who cares, I had to let the time pass, then all was ok. It is very easy to say you care, difficult to show it.
All the comments were just reminders I was damaged. Now, then again, my parents are worried, and they do not see American Football as dangerous, they can relate, understand me feeling pain for the home team.
Time allows all pain to pass, I have no choice, it will go away, I am positive of this, if I wait and try not to push to hard, time will heal all my pains in life, both physical and mental.