September 9, 2005 Friday 4:55 AM
I am thinking too much as normal, the problem with thinking too much for me is that it annoys people with my incessant questions and pushing so I lose friends. The problem for me is I cannot stay organized and classify or categorize my thoughts and ideas as fast as they arrive in the brain. Another problem is that with the brain working on various levels of analysis at the same time and there is a desire by my brain or to keep focused on the work, it consciously focuses, and sub-consciously focuses. The conscious level of focusing can override the better ability of the abstract mind to collect, collate, categorize and keep on focus of the real issues I am thinking about.
Now if that was not a convoluted enigmatic paragraph and to me succinctly said, nothing was… hehehe
I hit CTRL S or Save before, I lose that thought, which is even more frustrating to enter the data and lose the data.
- Skitoma -
In Chapter 58 - Page 204-205 of the book - The Da Vinci Code - by Dan Brown he used this term to describe a mental process of overlooking maybe what he would say is obvious because it is in the context of the whole and inconsistent with our pre-conceived desires and / or expectations.
(For those of you that do not read or know I am using the - dash instead of quote marks because the computer internet cafes are changing them too often to Chinese or Arabic something characters and messing up the HTML Code.)
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Talking about on issue make people lose the ability to come back to the real issue. Cultural studies requires a brain that cannot be lead away from the focus, there is and over stimulation of the brain when in a foreign culture and the ability to capture and remembers some small archetypes of the culture can be lost because the person or environment we are in is trying to force us to put our first level of consciousness on one subject however on the sub-level of actual conscious level we are observing something else.
This is an example of that above as I keep changing the focus, and wondering around in my brain the many levels of the discussion for both myself and anyone that could or would read this become crazy to understand.
Before I go further, I would make a great Muslim, I am prone to wake up at 4:00 or 5:00 AM and the call to prayer could work with me, however this type of focus in the morning would definitely interfere with my train of thought, however would be good for anyone with too many guilty actions they need to counter. Or it could start out the day with a big dose of guilt.
I said, this however I have no desire to be Islamic, I just know I could abide by the rules better than most.
(My candle is being spattered by dead mosquitoes flying into the flame, I think.)
I had a conversation with a person the other day of extreme knowledge levels on NGOs and cultural problems. The question I posed in the end was what is the long-term solution to Niger that will get your NGO to leave the country. His answer was behavioral change; I in turn said you are talking about - Cultural Imperialism - he then said, yes.
I was testing him when I said the words - Cultural Imperialism - as this is a great way to piss off a - politically correct - idiot. However a great way to separate and idiot from an intelligent person. A person who intellectually cannot see that this is a logic statement or a logic test by me using word games is incapable of studying or solving problems within other cultures.
The is because we bring with us our culture and we wish to change another culture and we get entangled in all the biases we brought with us and also the huge problem of what right do I have to change another person. That is a moral problem and interestingly enough better suited maybe for preachers and missionaries as see it as a mission of their God and they believe themselves imbued with the right to do this project.
The NGOs are trying to be multi-cultural or cross-culturally respectful and to try I think to bring a respect for all cultures to the table, however and I think they often forget the goal is to create a world where they are not needed. If that is not a conflict in interest for most of the lower cultures who are employed in a NGO. If I do great, I will not have a job.
My friend is the crème de crème and easy for him to say, the best thing that could ever happen is I do not have a job. He knows also in the back of his mind this would put the people working in Niger for the NGO out of job and not him. He knows there is always room for the best of the best, a sort of cultural superiority complex and the protection held in our minds. I am in a field of individuals that cannot compete with me on any level because I am from a superior culture and they cannot change their culture fast enough to compete.
Aagh, that should for sure annoy the political correct idiots.
Note, I am under my mosquito net; this mosquito net was brought to Niger by me and is always carried by me in my backpack. I am protected presently by the Mosquito net from thousands of small annoying and potentially lethal little mosquitoes. I do not wish to die from Malaria and the best way to minimize the chance is not by medicine, the best way it to not be bitten by mosquitoes. I am under this mosquito net and wish to make another cup of coffee (really a glass) and this means; I must open a hole in the side and compromise the closed environment. It is my observation that mosquitoes increase just after sunset and just before sunrise, so I am in the worst of time for opening this mosquito net and walking around in my shorts with all my body exposed.
I am going to stand up, open the hole, close the hole, make a cup of coffee and come back. What does all of this have to do with cultural testing, this damn mosquito net is the reason I am thinking about this. It was the first thought that started me to think about behavior change and is it possible for a culture to change quickly. Can you hire or pay people inside a culture to change a culture.
The long-term solution that will stop children under five from dying because of food problem is a cultural change, or ooops, I should say behavioral change. People can be snuck up on and whacked side the head if I use the word behavioral change, however to me this is a cultural change also, so I will whack them on the head on both sides at the same time.
The premise of NGOs is they are creating solutions, yes, they are however maybe on the 100-year plan, and what would be better is a 2-year plan with an exit strategy. I am annoyed and what they seem to be doing best is creating a beggar nation and destroying the desire to work or motivation to work and maybe creating a nation full of lazy people.
Welfare is way to enslave a person; their good intentions may be the new slave masters of African people.
I am thinking and dwelling I am more than willing to say and think what I am thinking and say what I am thinking and wonder in my head where I will go, I like to journalize and have learned.. I need a cup of coffee.
I have learned how to think more clearly by typing and writing down my thoughts. I think I may have the ability to provide a solution of awareness to the NGO people or the want to save the world groups; I have the technical resources to provide online journals for free to people traveling through impoverished countries, that need their story told in any way shape or form to the world.
I am going to go and scare the hell out of the average person; I am going to go drink the tap water.
To complete my thought, there is a need to culturally test my environment to see what level of development I am living inside of, money can create an illusion of upper levels and I could be living inside a tribal level mentality, which can be extremely dangerous in very developed level of home.
I have discovered myself in a rich mans house from the Hausa people of Nigers in the city of Zinder. I have been invited to stay here by the Son and am very appreciative of the invitation. However, I am also wondering if he is being eaten by Mosquitoes or is there something genetically different about a black persons skin or chemical makeup that makes them less likely to be eaten alive by Mosquitoes. I know my chemical makeup is less than most, the no see em do not bother as much as some, Mosquitoes annoy me less than some people, we are not all created equal in our ability to physically adapt or cope with the … - Mosquito World -.
I am going somewhere I am not sure where, however I keep thinking of all those movies and stories of researchers going and living with the Apes.
I am living in a rich mans home, I am not living in the normal Hausa culture, I have accidentally been tracked or placed into a more western world environment. The world tries its best effort to show me a good life, and to make me comfortable. In this helping, it creates a situation where I learn where they may want to be, and not where the majority actually are.
The sun is rising, the day is beginning in Zinder, I am going to take a shower and prioritize my day.
The goal today is to learn if the money I living inside of can create a world where it has actually taught the culture to first world level or they have actually changed and become first world level.
I need to go live with real people, much like they did in movies I where Sigourney Weaver lives with Apes, or that one man from the Lambs movie, I cannot remember his name.