Merry Christmas but I am not Happy and Content

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Asiabill from
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hhhhmmm so-o-o-ooo DEEP today eh? caused me to smile, better than asking about such cliche questions as "am I happy?" and "am I content?" is "Am I READY to DIE?" then everything else seems like trivial pursuits. "Do I want to be happy?" is more to the point and something to ponder upon. or "WHO am I?" is also a worthy issue to contemplate. "happy" like "love" or "friend" are words more often misused and part of a "con game" or betrayal than used to describe something eternal or solid enough to bet one's life on. A real endorphin rush is like the big "O" short lived but an enjoyable path to get there.
I often wonder why you have chosen a solitary lifestyle when you're witty, mentally capable energetic, worthy of respect, versatile enough and can afford both time wise and financially to share your endless ride around the earth with a dependable lovable companion. I KNOW the HIGHS and LOWS of being a lone traveler and of having a companion and a child. Anyway thanks for the exchange of "foods for thoughts".
Gadget from
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Living with people is difficult for me, I think too much, ask too many questions and wear people down thinking until the get angry.
I am having better luck with women that do not speak English, there is less stress on their brains when I cannot say anything I think.
The biggest problem though is I am uncontrollable, I have almost no reactive bone in my body, except to smile. When a person tries to maneuver me, I only agree, if I agree. This truly is a problem in relationships.
Third world countries are better than modern ones, even though the women is controlling, she tends to be the man should be in control.
The the Visa problem, my lifestyle is easy for a Western person, to take a Ghana or Philippine girl with me is a huge commitment, I must marry.
I accept that I am alone most of the time, but the truth is, I talk with about 50-100 people per day. I sometimes amaze myself, but I am Indiana, I try my best to say hello to everyone.
Skype is a wonder, I have many long conversations with many friends, I am never alone. I on the other hand respect most of my friends and keep them out of my not-so-private journal.
tropicalguide from
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I live in a house with people, but have my own living quarters upstairs and interact with them only when I come and go, I myself tried marriage when I was young, that was a disaster that ended in divorce, tried living with women and that did not work either. When one is dsyfunctional and may have a chemical imbalance there comes that stress point when you are in someone else's company almost 24/7 and one unkind word, one argument can ruin the relationship, done is done, apologies are great, but often don't mend things. I am talking about myself, no one else, as I am no expert in psychology or matters of the heart. As for travel, traveling around daily in most cases must be both exhilarating and stressful, especially if one is in a "new" place. For many years, in the region where I live, Central America, I drove and took a lot of risks, almost every day, for certain, do not know why, maybe it is my psychological makeup, at any rate, yesterday is yesterday, abscheid von gestern, manana es manana, I have only today and will make the best of it. Happy travels and Happy New year to you and all your readers. Don Lee, Ex Pat and Survivor, no mo, no less.
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