Too Much Respect
Too Much Respect
My friend Gary posed a question by email to me that could change my life, it not the question, it is my answer to the question. Sometimes a person can know and believe something however never apply it… hehehe
This is funny; I am receiving many emails recently from people who think I am stupid, harsh, making very bad judgments, opinions that are terrible off track. Often I would say they are hate mail, they bridge on having a person who now hates me and would like to remove me from the planet.
This is however, the brilliance or genius of Gary; he is able to write clear with the proper words.
THE COMMENT BY GARY
- I have found your recent articles/blogs to be thought provoking. Why haven't these organizations focused on the root causes of malnutrition? I like your focus on diet diversity.
I also found your comments that "the Holy Lands" are among the most unholy places on Earth, to be perfect.-
I am laughing because what I am writing or thinking is about all the mean or harsh emails I am receiving from people who say I am writing or blogging mean and cruel. They then proceed to write me mean and cruel emails trying to get me to stop thinking what I am thinking. Now if you have a brain and try to get it to stop thinking you can see that it is uncontrollable, it thinks what it thinks, it feels what is feels. I believe what they want is me to edit my thoughts, to keep them to myself, they do not know what they want, then want me to not - PROVOKE - them.
Gary said it, he finds my blogs provoking, now this can make a person angry or it can provoke to think, however when a say something that is totally correct for a person, then they get very angry. If I really wanted hurt a persons feeling then I am going to say something that truthful or I am going to say something that makes them afraid.
I get very angry when people tell me to stop thinking; this is because of the consistency in my life of people wanting me to stop talking and thinking. I make people around me extremely angry at my never-ending thinking. It is 100 percent common to hear,
- Stop thinking so much.-
I now laugh; however, as a youngster it was maybe traumatic. I now know this means, I do not want to listen, I cannot concentrate, please stop trying to provoke me to think.
It is very easy for a person to tell the other to stop, it is very difficult for them to stop thinking, so what they are saying is stop making me think, and they want me to stop also, I cannot and they cannot, it is equal.
A journal and I think a blog is people just thinking. I am realizing that a blog is normally not just random thoughts. I have started to read a couple and these are not their logs of thoughts, these normally are extremely edited, chosen words, chosen attempts to write like a journalist or writer, it is amateur attempts to be a writer to try to influence however not be held to any high degree of skills or truthfulness. I am laughing, like a professional writer tells the truth, they are just better at lying and not being discovered.
I write and try to not think or erase what I type, I almost never erase a sentence, I would consider this to be a lie, to erase what I thought is to say, I am not going to be honest with myself and say what I think.
What is changing my life is that I am learning that I give people to much respect, I often believe that professionals in a field are extremely intelligent and are more able than me to analyze the subject that they are studying than me, a person that is not studying a subject.
Example is Gary’s question:
Why no focus on the root causes?
I am of course not sure, I think though it has to do with the human brain, an inability, or no aptitude for some types of reasoning’s.
This is almost the same as making investments. We only have normally about 2 percent of the information collect and we have to then go bet the whole farm on our decisions.
A good investor can see or predict how the ball of twine will unroll and see the where it is determined to lead.
A plus B equal C plus D equals E plus F equals G and so forth and so on to Z
We only know A.
To suddenly say we know what to make Z is very arrogant and hard for a person to do, therefore they work on A or B, or C avoiding the Z because that is a God like decision and hard to look someone in the eye and say,
I am going to solve the problem.
Sadly the only logic that will permanently solve the problems, this is to make the decision on Z, try the solution and if it does not work, try some other Z that a person could try, or try many Z's at many time.
To care about A, B. and to only solve is easy.
To try to implement Z consistently is difficult and acting in a sense like a God that would know all.
Takes sort of an Egomaniacal self-centered person to decide he or she knows the solution, plus a person willing to bet the farm and his or her reputation.
For sure, this is NOT the types of individuals that work in NGO's; it is more the victims, not the victors.
Andy in India
Nonetheless I am believing now that Gary’s question is my revelation about myself, I know on some subjects I can more effective suss out the correct answers to problems than many. If I am with a professional this can create a situation where they get very angry.
I think of the moving - Good Will Hunting - one of my favorites, I hope I typed that correct, it is about a Math Genius who is a trouble person and Robin Williams is the Psychologist that helps him learn about himself so he can cope with the world.
The computer just crashed, it erased a paragraph.
The bottom line is I feel like Will, I identify with Will in the movie.
The solutions to Niger will not be found by the people that have been in the country for 10 or 15 years. They have proved they do not know the answers to the problems. I personally think they are the problem, it is a difficult logic to understand, however the longer you work on a project often you only prove you are incapable, not that you are capable.
To a person that is capable to suss out the answers it will seem simple, the person that works for years is challenged. It is the natural aptitude person that can solve it quickly, like Will in the Movie - Good Will Hunting -
Hunting for good will or the good Will.
The bottom line is a quote:
- If the Majority were correct, the Majority would be rich. -
I must laugh with you on this. It is not easy this road you travel though you talk much as to it being easy, but... i think the road (for now) has more chosen you. Why?... you are a prophet of sorts, uncomfortable or difficult that might be to wear or think of that mantle to carry on your shoulders. Carry it lightly, yes, and honest as you can be... but ...provoke.
I particularly appreciate your comments through Niger... as certainly frustrating to watch NGO sloth. I once shut down my biz to spend 3 yrs in ecuador to see and do and assist in 'community development' and it was more eye opening than i could have thought possible in terms of the corrupt, self-serving practices of NGO's and in my case, working under authority of 'missionaries'..(in my case the Evangelical Covenant Church). While it was shocking to discover their aristocratic attitudes and lifestyles, what is perhaps most difficult is to see the blind trust given to these groups, be it NGO or Mission, blind, giving trust given by folks back home and complete anger to even think to consider some sense of accountability or thought as to the 'profit' or effectiveness of these efforts. It is amazing perhaps that we are so selfish and profit centered at home in our own lives but for the sake perhaps of 'feeling good' about ourselves, we wantonly give in these ways w/ no thought as to the effect of the result of our 'good intentions.' ...our 'good intentions' perhaps therefore are less 'good' than truly self-serving in perhaps the worst way, but for which we are still 'responsible' i think.... but these are just my thoughts.