6:17 am, March 17, 2005 Thursday

I am amiss, lost sometimes, I am thinking I try to control my travel, my life, every aspect of my life, but I am always floundering in a sea of confusion. What is my goal? Where am I going? What do I really want to do?

Some days of my life, I only want to sit here and type in my thoughts, and then the next day I only want to work on my web pages. Then the next day I want to go to the beach and look at girls.

I went to a small movie place in Cuzco yesterday, it is on the second floor of small Hotel, and really is small, maybe 20 by 20 foot room, but very nice for watching movies. It cost a minimum of 2 dollars to see a movie. One dollar for the movie and you need to eat one dollar.

I watched this movie.

Diarios de Motocicletas
A story of two Argentina men riding a motorcycle down to the point of Chile and then back up South America to Venezuela. The stopped using the bike after Chile as it was wrecked, the proceeded a Mahatma Gandhi type trip sort of living off the good will of people they met, by hook or crook.

I am not sure, but I guess it is a loose interpretation of Che Guevara; I just went and read the Encarta Encyclopedia interpretation of Che… I suppose the movie is closer than I thought. I am not sure; I would have to go see the movie again. The movie is in Spanish with English sub-titles so a little difficult to follow, but it is a good movie.

The movie is good, there is a lot of very accurate filming of South America, I recognized most of the places in the film as I have been to most of these places, and almost everything filmed was accurate. I was very amazed at the ability of the director to capture photos or comparison of photos of peoples and places from so many locations in South America. The foresight amazes me; not often, a person films a location, but stages the scene in another. They appeared to have filmed the entire still like photos in all of these locations. These are not easy places to visit, and almost impossible to have a film crew. An American film crew has to live in luxury and there is not way this film crew live in luxury where this was filmed.

I dream, I suppose I dream of an idea… This idea is my dream, so I suppose if I dream a lot about ideas, I am being an idealist.

However, this word means… Ideal, the perfect whatever.
This places does not exist, trust me there is no perfect world, country or people, we are all the same, but different.

I travel to go find a dream, but like a dream, I cannot remember it very well and I cannot find my dream, so I keep traveling until I find my dream. However, how can you find a dream, it is a dream. What a mess, but like all dreams everyone want to hear a dream.

So in this movie they go travel, why? Because they travel.

I do not think Che Guevara is a good person, I think he was evil, as I think Fidel Castro is evil. If Fidel Castro was, a good person than persons would not get in boats and leaves the country risking being killed to go to the USA. People in the USA do not try to escape and if they want to leave, they can. A good person does not need to keep people hostage, love is about letting loose of people so they can be who they want to be.

The movie does not portray Che as a good person, but more of a nice, but full of crap individual who bullshits his way through life, trying to take what he wants. I see this as Che’s goal. He wanted to be some one, well he like many not so great people achieved this by being killed.

I keep hoping that Michael Moore could follow in Che steps, there are evil people on the planet and some of them need to become Martyrs so they can get what they want.

It is annoying to see so many travelers walking around with Che Guevara t-shirts. Why? I think they are the born clueless generation. A generation of youth that hops from fashion to fashion, trend to trend, with no introspection or thought…

Who am I?
Am I correct in my thoughts?

The children of parents that feel guilty and are afraid to tell their children to grow up and be adults. Parents that are afraid their children will leave them if they tell them what think. Fuser in the movie told people the truth, but a person that tells the truth is not popular, in fact, a person that tells the truth is living dangerously.

Last night I had a conversation with an older German traveler that is over here buying Tribal type products to sell in Germany. He is very successful in doing this and has does so for 11 years.
Well, he was talking about all the travelers that copy each other’s clothing, and all look like clowns. I am sure that many travelers think the other travelers look like clowns, too many tattoos, too many dreads, clothes to awkward and crazy to wear at home, but outside their country they scream for attention. Nevertheless, everyone is afraid to say… The king has no clothes, or the other traveler is dressed up like a clown.

This is causing serious problem for the world as the young people in other countries are copying travelers, so now we have youth all over the world copying the clueless generation. A generation of people with MTV in their brain, and told what to think and obeying every song, video, and trend that passes. No fresh thoughts.

This movie is good and definitely worth seeing, sells the old story of injustice and sadness, but is idealistic and uplifting. I think it has nothing to do with Che Guevara, but people have to make their heroes good people and forget the bad. A hero is a person, good and bad, sometime hard to say which side of the coin to choose.

Here is a little historical background on somebody who really is not important, but became important by being killed. He will live on for another 20 years than be forgotten forever.

“Guevara, Che, real name Ernesto Guevara (1928-1967), Latin American guerrilla leader and revolutionary theorist, who became a hero to the New Left radicals of the 1960s. Born into a middle-class family in Rosario, Argentina, Guevara received a medical degree from the University of Buenos Aires in 1953. Convinced that revolution was the only remedy for Latin America's social inequities, in 1954 he went to Mexico, where he joined exiled Cuban revolutionaries under Fidel Castro. In the late 1950s, he played an important role in Castro's guerrilla war against Cuban dictator Fulgencio Batista, and when Castro came to power, he served as Cuba's minister of industry (1961-1965). A strong opponent of U.S. influence in the Third World, he helped guide the Castro regime on its leftward and pro-Communist path. The author of two books on guerrilla warfare, Guevara advocated peasant-based revolutionary movements in the developing countries. He disappeared from Cuba in 1965, reappearing the following year as an insurgent leader in Bolivia. He was captured by the Bolivian army and shot near Vallegrande on October 9, 1967.”

From Microsoft Encarta Encyclopedia.

Travel Advice to unravel…
Good travel advice has a price.
With no price. I say, That’s nice,
Please think twice how you travel.
I know a good place to stay;
it is the cousin of my wife.
What did you say;
It is possible to lose my life.


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