TRYING TO FIND THE PLACE
I find that I am thinking too much. I spend too much time
worrying or wondering if I am making good decision. I am not sure
if I want to go to India. I want to go to France. I want to travel
the world, but I do not enjoy angry people. I do believe that it
is my resposibility to try to listen and learn why they are angry.
I know now. I am different and they do not like anyone different.
I think a lot about Guatemaula.
HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY TRAVELS?
I woke up this morning to the sound of the Islamic prayer.
The first time I heard this was in the early hours of Tropical
southern Thailand. It was a peaceful and wonderful sound.
I am afraid when I hear this sound.
There are loud speaker systems everywhere in Turkey that makes
this sound heard and cannot be avoided. I hear it 3-6 times daily.
It is a call to prayer.
It tells the locals to what group they belong and
is a reminder to remember the warning.
"You belong to this group and do not forget."
I have learned to fear this sound.
I was a typical USA person not even knowing anything
about the Islamic people.
Now I am different. I am afraid.
Why did I learn to be afraid of this sound?
I have learned that I should not spend more then 2-3 months
in any culture. The longer I am there the more I will be told
that I am different and should leave.
I wanted to go to Israel on this trip. I like the Israel girls
I meet when I travel and consider them strong and powerful. Full
of pride and a wonderful confidence. Independent and open, not
afraid of the world.
I like people that are brave. I think I am brave. I am not always
sure, and some days worry about places I go and people I meet.
I like the chidren and the old people of the world. They do not want
a fight and live in peace. Sadly it always appears that the people of
the world between 20 and 50 years old are looking for a fight.
I do not want to go to Israel right now. Mainly because to go there
would be so expensive and I do not have the money. I can best travel in
countries like India where it is extremely cheap. Plus I am tired of thinking
about their problems. I am tired of hearing about the poor Arabic people
that are rich with oil and how they have such a bad life. I just do not
care to listen now. I will come back again and listen. I am afraid also
of a belief I have and feel. I think or suicide bombers or the people that
did the September 11th. I want to hunt them down and kill them.
